today is different, no one is around, and today is

also the day i discovered the yeah yeah yeahs.

i love them.

an instant attraction.

i also began to do some research on my future tattoo.

i wanted something to represent my grandparents,

they both passed away when i was in grade 7

and i feel that they are a good excuse

to get a tattoo.

ive been considering this for atleast four years now

and this is my conclusion:

on my left wrist, two birds and possibly their intials?

and today, i began to sketch how i wanted it

to look, but i found this lovely photo of black birds

and one of them is in mid-flight.

 love it.

to be honest, i may actually get it like that, i think its just lovely.

but i wouldnt get the birds on the wire.

just the two in flight:)

i always kinda thought my birds would be swallows

and not coloured in.

but i think i like these better.

anyways, i kept searching tatttoos, and it

occurred to me that i would like to get more than one.

possibly many small ones in cute places.

like in between my fingers, or behind my ear.

then i started to think, why cant i get one for my birthday?

maybe because my dad would probably kill me,

but its my choice right? and its not like

im getting a portrait of captain crunch on my entire back.

geez.

but my dad was also against me getting my nose pierced.

which is too bad for him because i think im

gonna get that soon anyway.

maybe thats what ill do for my birthday :D

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from my previous post, i said id post a photo of my outfit to the party,

unfortunatley i didnt have enough time but

this is what i wore.

its my favourite summer outfit,and come to think of it, even though i greatly enjoy fall

i hate winter only because i cant wear my dresses or my cowboy boots. :<

again, not excited.

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the party two nights ago was very interesting, haha. pretty much:

some drunk bitch fell on the pavement and ruined the night.

i had nothing to drink so i just had fun making fun of the stupid hoes there.

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but tomorrow im going to adams grandparents cottage

i am so stoked !

i love his grandparents, they seem to make up for mine being gone.

on graduation day, adams grandma, marilyn, was so excited

she gave me the biggest hug and a kiss on the cheek.

it was nice to have grandma affection again.

i miss it.

actually, i miss my grandma.

which brings me back to the tattoo.

when i eventually design it, and have it exactly how i want it,

ill post it up here :)

amare, e