so last week i gave in and bought a very expensive (or atleast

in my case) pair of leggings from american apparel.

best.impulse.buy.ever.

since the day i brought them home, ive been living in them!

the girl helping me to the dressing room said she bought

a pair and wore them everyday at uni.

now, i can fully understand her.

they are so ridiculously comfortable, i dont think i own

anything else as comfy as these are.

its like, being naked almost.

haha

eventhough you have to treat them like pantyhose,

what with the easy catches and such,

i am definetly going to get more.

these were the next colours i was considering,

but unfortunatley, im not sure that i have many articles

that will match pink.

i figured the navy could replace dark wash jeans and

the charcoal could just be nice?

either way i definetly recommend them.

~

ugh all this back to school shopping and savings shit

is really starting to bother me :(

but every time i get money i wanna go out and buy some

trendy clothing thats expensive.

but latley ive been trying to save the money i get

so that when my birthday comes in september

i can go shopping all at once,

but all these damn savings and deals are so hard to see past.

i wish there were no commercials.

~

i curse all the people who just get money and clothes whenever

they want it. its not fair, iwant clothes whenever

i see something i like :(

lame.

i want money !

~

 to be honest,

i think im getting a little sick of the free time..

i know, thats the most retarded thing to say

but ive been bored and school, i think, will be easy this year

so im kind of excited for it to start.

but then i think of everyone going away,

and how completley different it will be

and then i get stressed thinking about the future, which

then leads me to wonder where adam will go to school, and how

far it may be..i dont like this.

not one bit.

i dont know what to do,

should i worry now and ready myself for possible disaster?

or forget it completley,

and deal with it when it comes ?

ive been favouring the second choice for two reasons:

one, because its way less stressful.

and two, because i still have a whole year with him being fifteen

minutes away, as well as being at the same school.

but every once in a while, im reminded

of that thought and apparantly its not as discreet

as i thought i was making it look.

i cant help it.

i never want him to move far away,

or even hours away for that matter.

these were from a camping trip we went on a few weeks ago,

they make me smile.

he is perfect for me.

liebe, e

today is different, no one is around, and today is

also the day i discovered the yeah yeah yeahs.

i love them.

an instant attraction.

i also began to do some research on my future tattoo.

i wanted something to represent my grandparents,

they both passed away when i was in grade 7

and i feel that they are a good excuse

to get a tattoo.

ive been considering this for atleast four years now

and this is my conclusion:

on my left wrist, two birds and possibly their intials?

and today, i began to sketch how i wanted it

to look, but i found this lovely photo of black birds

and one of them is in mid-flight.

 love it.

to be honest, i may actually get it like that, i think its just lovely.

but i wouldnt get the birds on the wire.

just the two in flight:)

i always kinda thought my birds would be swallows

and not coloured in.

but i think i like these better.

anyways, i kept searching tatttoos, and it

occurred to me that i would like to get more than one.

possibly many small ones in cute places.

like in between my fingers, or behind my ear.

then i started to think, why cant i get one for my birthday?

maybe because my dad would probably kill me,

but its my choice right? and its not like

im getting a portrait of captain crunch on my entire back.

geez.

but my dad was also against me getting my nose pierced.

which is too bad for him because i think im

gonna get that soon anyway.

maybe thats what ill do for my birthday :D

~

from my previous post, i said id post a photo of my outfit to the party,

unfortunatley i didnt have enough time but

this is what i wore.

its my favourite summer outfit,and come to think of it, even though i greatly enjoy fall

i hate winter only because i cant wear my dresses or my cowboy boots. :<

again, not excited.

~

the party two nights ago was very interesting, haha. pretty much:

some drunk bitch fell on the pavement and ruined the night.

i had nothing to drink so i just had fun making fun of the stupid hoes there.

~

but tomorrow im going to adams grandparents cottage

i am so stoked !

i love his grandparents, they seem to make up for mine being gone.

on graduation day, adams grandma, marilyn, was so excited

she gave me the biggest hug and a kiss on the cheek.

it was nice to have grandma affection again.

i miss it.

actually, i miss my grandma.

which brings me back to the tattoo.

when i eventually design it, and have it exactly how i want it,

ill post it up here :)

amare, e

i love flowers, almost all the dresses i own are coated

with lovely flowers. i guess they make me happy.

when i want to listen to something that is joyful but

quiet, i tend to find myself always coming back to

the same song.

"and you give" by matthew barber

i find it puts me in the best mood, always.

earlier today, i was thinking about vegans and vegetarians

ive decided that i myself, could never be either.

but i do have a secret respect for those individuals

who do claim the vegetarian diet.

i guess killing innocent animals is wrong,

but isnt that how life works?

with death i mean.

i also came to the conclusion that im honestly terrified of death.

i suppose the many run-ins with death that

ive experienced has really affected how i see it.

sometimes, when i think about the other people at school

that have lost a parent and still come to school must

be very strong individuals. i cant see myself just

accepting it that easily..

am i wrong for thinking any of this?

who knows

all i know is that death is the very worst outcome,

atleast in my opinion.

i spoke to adam about my fear once or twice,

he didnt seem to be scared and timid

like i am.

but adam is in no way timid or small in

everyday situations. i guess you could say adam

is my crutch to the scary things in life.

oh yeah, im scared of lots of things unfortunatley.

the dark, heights kinda, sharks, needles, dark alleys, the oven..

but ive decided that i want to conquer some of these

fears in my life. for example, for my birthday this

year im planning on either skydiving

or bungee jumping :)

atleast thats a step in the right direction.

i have a day job for my mom's work tomorrow,

not excited.

but after were going to my uncles birthday or something

which im excited about because that means

there will definetly be delicious food waiting

to be eaten, and i plan on doing some

damage >:)

and after, im going to a friends house for a party

hes throwing. i also plan on looking super cute

which is always good.

i guess that means ill follow the trend of

putting up photos of my outfits like many others have done.

hopefully ill have enough time.

love, e

first

             my name is erin, and i love Adam.
                                                                             he is my life, thats for sure.
                                                       i also thrive on art, or more specifically drawing.
                                                      if any of you were wondering, i did infact draw the
                                                          collage at the top of my blog, and it happens
                                                                              to be my pride and joy :)

this is Adam,he has the deepest voice in the entire world.

                                                                so im turning eighteen soon, i guess i should

                                                                   feel special. but i dont in the slightest.

                                                                 all my closest friends are leaving for uni

                                                                 in a few weeks and school will definetly

                                                              be lonely without them. since i couldnt be

                                                        100% sure on my career, i weenied out and decided

                                                                    to return to stupid highschool. fun.

                                                          but adam is also returning, so i guess im sortof

                                                          stoked on the fact that i get a whole other year

                                                    of him while others are seperated from their boyfriends..

                                                        i know thats mean to say but i am so looking forward

                                                                              to seeing him everyday :)

                                                                                        lovelovelove,

                                                                                                    e